Monday, March 30, 2009

Meron o wala?

Hindi yung gameshow ang tinutukoy ko; dumating na kasi ang email ng SMU kay Justine...Wala pa'ko. Hindi ko alam kung hindi kami nanominate dahil dun sa Europe thing o hindi talaga ako natanggap. Eitherway, wala pa rin akong email, at wala pa rin akong school sa JTA. Dahil iyong Europe, sabi last week ibibgay. Pero wala e. This week daw. Anyway.

Naalala ko lang iyong sinasabi noon na wala naman talagang bagay na masasabinhg wala sa mundong ito--tipong never existed. Dahil the fact na nasabi mong wala iyon ay isang pruweba na minsa'y naranasan mong meron noon. Ayun lang naman. Sa ngayon ang bakasyon ay napuno ng pagbasketball kasama si Charles, panonood ng mga pelikula, pagkatakot sa gitna ng gabi, pagbabasa ng labing-apat na pahina ng Walong Diwata ng Pagkahulog, paglilinis ng kwarto, pagtapon ng mga papel, pagPlurk, at ngayon-ngayon lang, pagJam Legend.

Wala pa rin?:(

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Heights: Guilty Pleasures

Have you seen the latest release? It's good, really. Here's one that I think was really witty. I'd like to remind you that this is not my work, and I'm not claiming any of these. I am merely sharing with you what great piece Miss Yap made.

Eggshells
by Isabel Yap

Simon's bakery has a knack for attracting every female in town.

The smell of fresh bread, the candy-colored roofing, and Simon himself, sitting cozily at the bakeshop window, rolling his pin over an endless stretch of dough, an eerie smile on his face, brings an endless mass of giggles, frocks and fancy shoes stepping outside and pushing around inside and by the end of the day everything is sold out.

Simon takes his time choosing his ingredients. He picks out the purest, sweetest lamb in the throng of bleating sheep that approach him. He captures her by the hand, gestures to the kitchen. She is usually a-flutter and overwhelmed. She is not always the prettiest, and hardly ever is she the most shapely. Usually she is the youngest, but that's only coincidence--the one discriminating factor is that she is not hardened, that she does not wear a frown. He sees the right one and stands, sets the rolling pin aside, pushes through the crowd which parts like a wave over his charm, and touches her gently on the shoulder, or her cheek if position allows.

Her face bright red, she lets herself be led away, and other girls seethe with envy.

Maybe that why they don't realize--the chosen ones never come back.

The kitchen smells wonderful, and it has the dusted look of sweet bread. Simon himself, perhaps with a smidgen of flour on his nose or a thin crust of sugar on his lips, all toppings to the cream of his face and the indulgent chocolate of his eyes, is more than a treat for an already ravenous lady. He sits her down and tells her, very quietly, the importance of producing the finest baked goods in town, and the sacrifice it entails. She listens and nods. She doesn't notice how bare the back room is, and she doesn't wonder where his assistants are. She doesn't notice that his refrigerator is half-empty. There is a carton of milk on the table and a bowl and a stirring rod, and she muses, dreamlike, oh isn't he wonderful. All her mind can think is that he is heaven, and all their little children will be angels.

He tells her in a voice cold as frozen icing that she is special. He tells her he loves her.

The glare in his eyes shines somewhat when he says this.

It's a tried and tested speech. He is used to it, but he wishes sometimes there were easier ways to do things--simpler and less devious ways. Then his stomach rumbles and he forgets all this empathy. He squeezes her hands between his palms, kisses her forehead, and asks her to give him her heart.

And she does.

He takes it in its simple form, not the bleeding mass some other evils prefer.

The little apple-shape is delicate in his hand. She remains on the stool with closed eyes and protruding lips.

He holds her hear against the bowl and cracks it, lightly, and all the love inside flow out. It is a beautiful color, not like egg at all. The white is more pink, the yolk deep red.

He has stopped hoping long ago, but is a little disheartened just the same when he finds that this one won't fill him either. It's never enough.

He tosses the shell into the growing pile in the corner and whisks around the heart's contents a bit. He adds some milk. After some thought, he adds a dash of sugar as well. He dusts his hands on the clean apron around his waist, sighing. He doesn't want to be a villainm but that's just what he is. He doesn't want to be so gluttonous, but there is no way he'd willingly starve. He stands and piles the ingredients to a bowl, mixes in some flour and yeast, pops it into the oven and thinks that tomorrow, he might try marzipan squares or egg tarts. But today he'll make sponge cake.

He will be satisfied someday, surely. He will appease the hunger in time. Still, for now, he has to keep being patient.

Presently the oven lights stop burning yellow. He pulls the cake out and cuts himself a slice.

At least, he tells himself, with what might be a rum-bitter remorse, at least when I say it's made with love, I'm telling the truth.

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Nice, right? Galing ng words and all. It kinda reminds me of Sweeney Todd but of a lighter, less dark version. And it's kinda sweet. HAH.

You can have my eggshell, and drink the yolk to the last drop even.


Eggshells


Friday, March 27, 2009

March 27, 2009

Was at first a bad day for me. For a number of reasons like
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And then it got better. We went to Paranaque to go see Maki's lola's house there. It's huge, of course. And then we went to Town Center. Nothing new really, except for the fact that we got lost going there and we got lost going home. Plus the people I was with--Jour Dan, Roxy, Gine, and of course, Maki. Fun is an understatement. It was hilarious.

But my favorite part was when (parang Dora lang!)

Jour accidentally went inside that yellow box for the intersection nung stop, e bawal yun 'di ba. Haha di ko maipaliwanag nang maayos, wala akong alam sa tungkol sa mga kalsada. haha pero ayun. TAPOS may MMDA na malapit doon tas onti-onti siyang lumapit. Tapos nagffreak-out na kami sa loob ng car. Tapos di binuksan na ni Jour yung window. sabi itabi raw pagka-go dun sa kabila. Tas yun na nga. Hiningan ng lisensya, registration, mga ganun. Tas ineexplain na ni Manong Junior (that's what we call him now) kung anong violation, na baka raw mabangga kami kung saka-sakaling malasin dahil nakaprotrude yung harap nung car ni jour sa intersection. Tas ipinapaliwanag na niya kung paano babayaran ni Jour yung ticket niya sa office daw nila. 200 daw. Tas ineexplain niya ba't di pwede sa bangko and all, kailangan sa office sa Makati. Tapos sabi ni Jour hindi naman niya talaga sinasadya.

TAPOS.

Sabi niya, ang hirap naman daw ticket-an ni Jour kasi parang ang bait-bait daw niya tapos nakangit pa kaming lahat na kasama niya. WOOHOOO tapos sinabi na rin namin na nawawala kami tapos tinawanan pa niya kami na may MAPA kami tapos sabi ni Pinoy ba raw kami parang 'di kami taga-Maynila tapos pinayuhan pa niya kami na mag-aral daw kami mabuti.

TAPOS sabi niya,

Hindi lahat ng MMDA, masama.


AMEN. AMEN to that.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

To the Big Guy

Hi Sir,

Alam kong sobrang late na nito. And I am very aware of your REALLY big help in the past months of my humble life. I know that all I've been doing was ask for Your time, ask for more and even more. For every hour and ever plate number I wished and prayed to you. For the miracles. And that's almost all that I told you. I know that I never really got to talk to you properly and many of our conversations were more of small, quick talks--not because You were busy, of course, but because I thought I was too busy. Yes, Sir, I know no one is ever too busy for You. And I'm really sorry. But You stuck with me there. And thank You. And You gave me too many miracles. And I thank You for that. And You gave me people to help me. And I am very thankful for them. Sir, I know I am the most unworthy of Your time, but You gave me some. No, You gave me a lot. And even though I don't act like my younger brother right now when he got this big box of some Hotwheels cool thingamajig for his graduation, I am happy. And I'm thankful for that.

Sir, I know that there were LOTS of times I was just calling out to You and almost thinking You weren't there. But You were. Thank heavens You were.

A firm believer,

Koko

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SUMMER IS HERE. Siguro 'di naman ako tatamaan ng kidlat dahil ngayon lang ako "nagkaoras" para gawin ito. Sorry po, Lord. Sorry talaga.

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IT

It

is not like seeing a gas station
after travelling for so long
'cause you just HAVE to pee.

is not like that first drop of water
that you got after that jog.

is not like the toothpaste
you use to soothe the pain
'cause you stupidly didn't notice the fire.

IT

is not like anything in this world.

IT

is more than that.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Uhm

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

some 4 hours before my last Acc LT!

What's

Hello?? Sabaw na'ko. Nawawala na naman index cards ko. Pakiramdam ko nag-adventure na naman mga gamit ko e. Alam ko, alam ko, astig magkaroon ng mga magical na gamit na sumasagip ng iba pang mga magical na gamit sa mga lugar na hindi tanaw ng mga walang magical na mata pero naman e, 'pag kailangan ko tsaka kayo uma-adventure! Asa'n na ba kayo? 'Di ako makagawa ng kahit ano e :( Nattempt tuloy akong gumuhit na naman ng magical index card parang yung kagila-gilalas kong ruler dito.

Labas tayo bukas pagkatapos ng LT mga kuya, mga ate! Naalala ko pa ang pakiramdam ko after ng Acc20 LT4...dumaan kaming Libis at makislap ang mga ilaw noon. Naiyak ako...swear! haha Wala nang paki kung anong kinalabasan. Basta tapos na. Looking forward to that tomorrow. But of course I will have to go through the aral first and then the test itself. There can be miracles, if you believe. THOUGH HOPE IS FRAIL, IT'S HARD TO KILL! WOOOHOOOO.

At oo nga pala. Sinabi ko bang sabaw na'ko?

Sabaw na'ko.