The sky's wearing a smile :)

This is why I am down on my knees for a zoom lens. Or at least a second floor sa bahay :|

Ilang bagay lamang

...na nais kong ibahagi bago ako bumalik sa pag-aaral.

Iilang bagay lamang ang nakapagpapatigil sa'king mag-aral (yes, I'm that much of a geek) nang hindi masama ang nagiging pakiramdam--magagandang libro, magagandang palabas, magagandang usapan, magagandang panaginip (sa pagtulog). Kaya naman simula pa kaninang alas-otso ay nanonood ako ng mga video galing sa Why Not? Forum. Napukaw ng site na'to ang aking atensyon dahil naipakita sa ANI Acads GA noong Biyernes si Mr. Pagsi, isang guro sa Ateneo. Kung may oras kayo (at alam kong lahat ay mayro'n nito), panoorin niyo.

Nabanggit sa video ni Mr. Pagsi ang mga tanaga, kaya naisipan ko na rin gumawa tungkol sa isang bagay na nabanggit din niya sa video.

Sa aking huling kama
ay ayoko naman na
kumapit sa hininga't
sambiting, "Sana, sana."

Renewed :)

Nothing is more practical
than finding God,
that is,
falling in love
in a quite absolute final way.

What you are in love with,
what seizes your imagination,
will affect everything.

It will decide
what will get you out of bed
in the morning,
what you will do
with your evenings,
how you will spend your weekends,
what you will read,
who you know, what breaks your heart,
what amazes you with
joy and gratitude.

Fall in love.
stay in love.
and It will decide everything.

-Fr. Pedro Arrupe S.J.

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I am renewed. Today what I prayed for in mass (aside from the usual) was for Him to keep this fire burning. The last words of the priest from his homily was, "That we may be gifts to those who are around us." Maybe that's the best present we can give our friends...ourselves :)

Break.

Because my back's already aching from all the math problems. :-< And I'm not even done with the other practice homeworksssss. Must. resist. laziness. Must. answer. all.

*from Lois.

Name something that made you frown today?
-- The fact that those kids barely have a choice.

What were you doing at 12:00 this afternoon?
-- Cleaning MVP212, laughing, talking about WCG! =))

What were you doing 1 hour ago?
-- Answering math practice homework :|

What is something you will never forget?
-- My birthday. :)) and the numbers of the people close to me.

What was the last thing you said aloud?
-- "Ate."

How many different things did you drink today?
-- 3.

What was the last thing you bought?
-- Grilled boneless chicken from chinky chickens.

What was the last gift you got?
-- Uhmmmmmmm. Birthday gifts last May.

What color is your room?
-- Kadiri white, but it will soon be yellow~

Where do you keep your change?
-- Coin purse.

What is the weather going to be like tomorrow?
-- Not so great, but not that bad either.

Vanilla or chocolate?
-- Vanilla

What are you excited about?
-- Christmas~

Are you very random?
-- Yes.

Do you want to cut your hair?
-- Not really, but my aunt's been telling me I look better with shorter hair. Whatchathink?

What would you do if you got pregnant?
-- Well, I'd keep the baby because of course, that will only happen after I get married. :)

Do you giggle a lot?
-- Mmmm. Dunno.

Do you have plans tomorrow?
-- Call me a geek. I will continue studying. Math. On a Sunday. But we probably will go get some other stuff for the house.

Are you ticklish?
-- Yes, very. I won't say where, but a lot of people know that.

Are you typically a jealous person?
-- Yep. Ask Kevin Pua. :)) Or Odilon Meneses. Or Edrick Santos. Yes, whole names. :))

Are you gay?
-- Gay as in happy, kinda.

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "c"?
-- Charles

Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
-- Some unknown person whom Bam texted

What's the 5th text in your inbox?
-- My mom telling me she couldn't shut down my laptop cause it's password protected. :))

Do you chew on straws?
-- No, that is if ever I use one. I'm an advocate of less straw usage. Stop using straws unless you badly need it. I don't know of situations that'll be so, though :|

What is the next concert you're going to?
-- I'm not a concert fan.

What's the biggest disappointment to you lately?
-- :-? Oh gosh, it'll have to be that math is confusing.

How many times have you sworn today?
-- I've lost count.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
-- Trying to sleep

What was the last thing you ate?
-- Marshmallows+ Nutella :)

Have you seen the movie "Dirty Dancing"?
-- Nope

Do you have to do anything tomorrow?
-- Yea.

Is success in your future?
-- Yes. Diretso ang sagot. Haha

When was the last time you copied someone?
-- Uhh?

Are you obsessed over something right now?
-- No, but Jour Dan's been telling me I'm addicted to studying.

Do you have a nickname?
-- Yes. I have lots.

Are you a heavy sleeper?
-- Used to be. Now I'm not so sure.

When was the last time you used a skateboard?
-- Uhmmmm I haven't tried.

When was the last time you said I love you to a parent?
-- I don't think I can remember.

Was today a good day?
-- Yes

What song are you listening to right now?
-- None

How’s school going?
-- Better than last sem.

Are you upset about life right now?
-- Not so :)

What time is it?
-- Time for me to get back to my math problems. Why do you have so many questions? :|

What are you going to do this second?
-- Answer your question, duh

If someone doesn't like you, it's usually because:
-- I'm arrogant.

Last Saturday night you?
-- I forgot. But if I were to answer this tomorrow, the answer'd be...I studied for math. Whattageek.

Do you currently have feelings for someone?
-- Yes

What were you doing this morning at 8?
-- Most probably still sleeping

What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
--Guh. Math still.

Are you angry at anyone right now?
--No

The last person to say they loved you?
-- Mmmmm. hahaha

What have you eaten today?
-- Do I have to say everything? Nutella sandwich, CHOCOLATE SUMAN, grilled boneless chicken, cheeseburger, french fries, marshmallows

What did you do Friday night?
-- Okay maybe Jour Dan was right. I am addicted to studying. (Was reading Eco last night.)

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
-- Yes, I think. Or something close to it--ITM project cramming.

What did you do two nights ago?
-- OH I was....er...studying for my Asian blank map test.

What was the weather like on your birthday?
-- Great. It was summer :D

Would you make out with anyone on your top friends list?
-- No :|

What does your last text say?
-- Was looking for my dad.

What is the total call time on your phone?
-- Hah? :))

When is the last time you cursed?
-- This afternoon? While we were playing cards? haha

Do you have a dog?
-- Yes, but I don't like dogs. In fact, I don't like animals.

Do you own a stereo that costs more than 100 dollars?
-- I don't know

Do you have a crush on anyone?
-- Happy crushes? Marc Nelson! :)) And a lot of other guys.

Would you like to live in New York City?
-- For a while, yes.

Do you miss someone?
-- Hm yes.

Do you think they miss you too?
-- I don't know

Will you ever speak to them again?
-- Yes

When is the last time you laughed?
-- This afternoon

Have you ever been in a museum?
-- Yes

How old are you?
--SEVENTEEN. Not yet manang. :)) [haha, Roxy.]

Do you plan to go to college?
-- I'm already in college.

Funniest thing you've said in the past 24 hrs?
-- I don't know

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Natapos din :|

Victims of Circumstance

Kagabi nabanggit ng isang tao na victim of circumstance siya. Ngayon ko lang narinig at gagamitin ang kataga 'pagkat sa tingin ko, ngayong araw na ito, ay nakilala ko ang mga pinakamahuhusay na halimbawa ng mga biktima ng sitwasyon.

Blue Christmas kasi kanina at naging class host kami nina Bea, Roxy at Pierre. Kinailangan kong i-cut ang NSTP activity para sa araw na ito, at ngayong iniisip ko, wala akong dapat pagsisihan. Nakilala ko ang mga cute at bibong mga bata, pero sa di malamang kadahilanan mas drawn talaga ako sa mga lalake-mapamatanda o bata; mas madali ko silang makasalamuha.

Iyon naman ang rason kaya ako tumabi sa mesa ng mga lalake nung gumagawa sila ng mga lantern, cards at iba pa. Napansin kong ang nakahiligan nilang dibuho sa mga ginagawa nila ay ang mga letrang "TBS" (True Brown Spirit [ata]), mga katagang "Tau Gama Phi" at "Delpa". Naitanong ko sa kanila kung ano ang mga iyon at mabilis nilang isagot na ito'y mga gang. "Hindi mga frat, ate. Gang."

Pinilit naming ilayo ang usapan sa mga gang pero nung tanungin ko sila kung saang high school nila gustong mag-aral (dahil wala doon sa paaralan nila ngayon), Quirino raw ang maganda para maraming kapit. Ipinaliwanag nila sa'kin na ang ibig sabihin nito'y kung may kaaway ka at marami kang kapit, tumawag ka lang at bubugbugin na nila ang kaaway mo.

Mas kagulat-gulat pa riyan ay ang mga iba pa nilang naikwento sa'kin. Sabi ng isang bata sa'kin, "Ate, 'pag nasaksak ka ng ice pick hindi masakit pero unti-unti kang mamamatay." Alam na nila iyon sa mga murang edad na (humigit-kumulang) labindalawa. Alam na nilang sasali sila sa mga gang na ito sa edad na labing-apat. Alam na nilang magbibitbit sila ng baril, samurai, ice pick at kung anu-ano pa sa pagsapit ng dilim sa mga kalsada.

Nabanggit na rin lamang ang mga kalsada, pamilyar sa'kin ang mga nabanggit nilang kalsada at lugar dahil galing silang Project 3 at sa Project 4 kami nakatira. Ang iba pa nga sa kanila ay nakatira mismo sa mga kalsadang pinangyayarihan ng mga gang war tulad na lamang ni James na crush ng bayan. (Wala lang, gusto ko lang banggitin. Ang gwapo nung bata e.)

Nakakatakot lang isipin na ang mga batang sina James, Jham, Josh, Jomari, JJ at iba pa (puro J!!) ay kakailanganing sumali sa mga kupunang ito para lang protektahan ang kanilang mga sarili. 'Wag natin silang husgahan. Alam nilang mali iyon, tulad na lamang ng banggit ng isa sa mga bata. Pero wala silang magawa; biktima sila ng mga sitwasyon.

Pinagsabihan ni Bea ang mga bata nang napunta sa usapang ito. Sabi niya, "Huwag kayong maglaban-laban, magkakaschool kayo." Ang sagot ng mga bata, "Ate, 'di kami maglalaban-laban. Magpapatayan kami." Kakailanganin nilang tumbasan ang lakas ng mga dati nilang kaibigan. Kakailanganing kalabanin ang mga kasama nilang lumaki. Pero ang pinakamahirap na siguro para sa mga batang ito ay ang harapin ang katotohanang kaakibat ng kanilang kapaligiran.

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!! Iba ang mga frat sa gang, ayon sa mga bata. Kapatiran daw ang mga frat. E ano nalang sa mga gang? Ibig sabihin ba nito'y pwedeng magkalaglagan sa mga gang? Dagdag panganib na naman kung gayon! :(

*
May pangarap din ang mga batang ito. Nabasa kasi ni JJ yung nakasulat sa phone ko na, "When I run out of dreams, I run out of life." Tinignan niya ko nang may pagtataka. Ipinaliwanag ko sa kanya. At saka sinabing,

"Ipaglaban mo ang iyong mga pangarap. Maski ano pa yan. Ano nga ba gusto mo maging paglaki?"

"Accountant."

ohhhh~ =))

Bago matulog

Pinakinggan ko ang palatak ng aking relo
at ang naisip ang pag-iling-iling nito.

Bawat segundo'y nauubos,
kinakain ng nakaraan.

Sa inis,
tumakbo ako papunta sa isang pader,
inaasahang ang ulo'y mababagok at babagsak.

Ngunit hindi nangyari ang inaasahan--
napunit lamang ang pader at
isiniwalat ang isang katotohanan.

Isang mundo sa labas ng
dito.

Malinis ang mga linya,
at puro puti ang aking nakita.

Doon, Siya'y aking nakita.

May mga panukat at panulat...
may mga plano't kung anu-ano pa.

Mga makina,
pagawaan ng ano?

Nakita ko ang isa,
aba'y akin itong lapida.

Nakwadro ka. Nakwadro ako:
inakalang ang mundo'y iyong-iyo.

Tumindig ang balahibo.

Takot?

Hindi--bahagi ng Kanyang palabas:
pagbatak ng iyong mga sinulid upang ika'y umindak.

Nakwadro ka. Nakwadro ako:
inakalang ang mundo'y iyong-iyo.

At ang lahat ng lahat ay hindi namang talaga,
at ang tinawag mong akin ay hindi kailanman.

*

Altho it is quick to assume that those capitalized words refer to God (or some other religious figure), that is not my intention. Just clarifying.

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HISTO GAH.

Ang laki-laki ng mundo

tapos hinati-hati natin--
gumuhit ng mga linya
tinawag itong akin
at iyon, kanya
at matapos ang ilang kurap
bigla uling bura
ng mga guhit, kwadro at hangga

ayayay (read in The God's must be Crazy tone)
ano ba talaga.

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sabaw na'ko sa histo....