nahihilo na'ko...

pag minsan wala ka nang maintindihan...at wala nang makakapitan...

di ko na alam kung anong dapat maramdaman sa mga nangyayari sa pilipinas.

ang kapangyarihan ng salita

hindi ko alam
kung ano ang tinutukoy nila
noong sabihing
mag-ingat sa pananalita.

isang palasong tutuhog
sa puso ninuman
ang mga salitang
may poot sa paggamit,
matulis at maganit.

ngunit bakit sa tuwing
isusulat ko
ang kung anumang nasasaisip,
hindi nila nahuhuli
o lumalapit man lang [na parang limit,hehe]
sa tunay na ibig sabihin
at totoong damdamin.

anong malay n'yo
kung gaano kasakit
at kadilim
ng galit ko ngayon
sa mundong ito

o di naman kaya'y
anong saya--
gumugulong na'ko sa ligaya
at tumatalon-talon
dahil sa tuwang nadarama?

kaya't di ko maintindihan
kung paanong sa tindi......................



di ko matapos ang tula sa sobrang inis. sa susunod nalang siguro.

holy shizz

alam niyo bang mahirap maging magulan?hahaha. wala lang. wala sina inay at itay, 15-18 days sila mawawala. sa unang araw na wala sila, nagfamily day kami ni niels. oo,kaming dalawa lang. hahaha. tapos sa unang gabi na wala sila, umiyak naman si nathan. sa ikalawang araw naman na wala sila, PANSIT kami all the way sa tanghalian. wahahaha. wala lang. so ayun. gawaan pa ng artikulo di ko alam kung pa'no ako makadidiskarte kasi hanggang 4.30 araw-araw ang klase ko so after-class parati ang interview. e kawawa naman ang mga maiiiwan dito sa bahay pag late ako umuwi. hayayayay. wish us luck, thanks :)



p.s. miss ko na si nanay, wala nakong kinukurot sa bahay :( tapos inaayawan pa ko ng mga madalas kong kurutin, i.e. igo, roxy, jourdan [maki,walang makurot sayo e. :)) ]

dahil ang pinakamagagandang tula ay hindi kailanman maitatala

bagamat pilitin kong
isulat kayo
at hulihin ang kaibuturan
ng inyong mga kalul'wa,
mukhang di ko kaya,
aking mga musa.

pagkat ang pinakamagagandang tula
ay hindi kailanman maitatala
wag sanang magtampo,
umalis...
mawaglit sa 'king isip.

na kahit sa 'king mumunting alaala
na lamang kayo magpunyagi
at mabigyang katarungan
ang inyong ganda.

na kahit walang makarinig,
walang makakita,
walang makaramdam,
alam ko sa 'king sarili
na minsa'y may mga tula
na 'di kailanman maitatala.

ang hangganang ito

nilulunod ako ng hangganang ito;
'di ko alam kung sa'n nga ba ako nanggaling.
ayokong tignan ang mga pinagdaanan pagkat
ni hindi ko alam kung tunay silang naganap

hindi ko alam kung anong ikatatakot--
parehong madilim
at parehong nilulunod ako
ng kawalang-kalinawan
ng nasa harap at nasa likod

kung bakit ba sa dulo pa kailangan
mag-alinlangan
at magtaka kung may katotohanan
pa ang mga nangyari, ang mga sinabi

marahil ay titigil ako
dito sa hangganang ito--
sa pagitan ng kinatatakutan kong
nasa harap at likod ko.

dito nalang ako'y kukubli,
uupo, magbabakasakali.

erkay.

since most of you prolly saw this, i'm just gonna post my month. go get the whole thing from cha or kim clarete or someone.hahaha

MAY = SEXY [ kaching! you hit the jackpot! NOOT. :| ]
-Suave and compromising. [ ah eh. ]
-Funny and humorous. [ corny raw ako e. :)) ]
-Stubborn. [ ermyeah? ]
-Very talkative. [ HAHAHAHA. true. ]
-Calm and cool. [ hah? course :> ]
-Kind and sympathetic. [ YEHES. kind. koko, kind? hahaha. ]
-Concerned and detailed.
-Loyal.
-Does work well with others. [ talaga? ]
-Very confident. [ siguro :)) ]
-An awesome kisser. [ not yet proven. naks! hahaha. ]
-Sensitive. [ ha? ]
-A very goodawsomee girlfriend/boyfriend. [ still not proven :)) ]
-Amazing Smile. [ :D ]
-Positive Attitude. [ yes. ]
-Thinking generous. [ yes. ]
-Good memory. [ yes,according to therese long. ]
-Clever and knowledgeable.
-Loves to look for information. [ chismosa? =)) ]
-Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. [ pwede rin. ]
-Able to motivate oneself and others. [ er.yea? ]
-Understanding.
-Fun to be around. [ yea, i know. people kill each other just to be with me :)) not. ]
-Outgoing. [ yes. ]
-Hyper. [ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. no. joke, yes.(yuck pati comment ko dito hyper. =)) ]
-Has All The Characteristics of John Carrico [ HAH? sorry di kita kilala. wait lang i-google lang kita................................................................ang hirap hanapin a.........................................................................................okay whatever. kung sino ka man, hi! hahahah ]
-Bubbly personality. [ bubblybubblybubble. labo. :| ]
-Suductive. [astig, SUDUCTIVE ako. wahahahahaha. anong ibig sabihin ng SUDUCTIVE? haha ]
-Boy/girl crazy. [ ha?eh? ]
-Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. [ sports, no. music, yea. leisure, yesss. traveling, yesss. ]
-Super sexy. [ OO NA NGA E! =)) ]
-Extremley hot but has brains. [ yea, baby :> (lahat naman may brain a... :)) ) ]
-If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days. [ so eon we're very much alike? haha :> walang crushable ngayon e :| ]



hahaha.ang sabaw nito :|

i can't believe it.

it sucks when you're in the middle of something you really hate. if any of you could remember, i hate the traits of Filipinos trying to establish a connection with people to get certain benefits. ugh. UGH. stop it, please. okay, so i know someone na nagkasakit tas my parents really had to force me to write this message to a busmate nung highschool cause her dad's attending to the one na maysakit. ugh ugh. it just sucked.

tonight :)

by fm static

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

nostalgic ba?

High School Survey

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag-flag ceremonies?
--- ganu'n talaga pag officer. [yehes! haha. nakaka-miss din pala. :))]

2. Anong fave mong bilhin sa canteen?
---- turon.

3 . Na-guidance/principal's/csde office ka na ba?
---- yes if routine guidance interviews count.

4. Sinong fave teacher mo doon?
---- miss aniago.

5. Sinong HATEST teacher mo nmn?
---- :-"

6 . San ka usually tumatambay? Why?
---- wait. ang hirap alalahanin a. sa MMA ata.

7 . What's your most unforgettable experience?
---- marami. unang pumasok sa isipan ko yung nalaglag ako sa bus dahil lumakas yung hangin. SERIOUSLY.

8. Most unforgettable anything in HS?
---- mga tao.

9 . Varsity?
---- varsity water girl. haha. wala e.

10 . Sinong una mong nakilala sa highschool mo?
---- si allison dela cruz ata.

11 . Sino-sino mga kabarkada mo nung HS?
---- sa pagkakaalam ko sina jescia, alex, mia, keishia, nicki, jojo, tete, jill

12 . Nami-miss mo na ba yung uniform mo?
-- medyo. KAMI LANG KASI ANG MAGANDA ANG UNIFORM. supot na yung iba. hahaha

13. Ilang beses mo nang nawawala ung ID mo?
---- nawala na hindi na talaga nahanap?never.

14. Favorite teacher's quotable quote?
---- "bakit ang mga lolo e laging tumatango at ang mga lola, laging umiiling?" ang may alam ng sagot, itaas ang kamay :>

1 5 . Most unforgettable person/persons? Why?
---- everyone. cause they made the experience memorable.

1 6 . Kelan sa tingin mo dadating ang yearbook?
---- meron na. O HA? hahahaha

17 . I-describe ang mukha mo sa gradpic.
---- di ko kamukha, at mas mataba kaysa personal.

18 . Anong binibili mo sa labas tuwing uwian?
---- rock and roll sandwich ng Karakuch? hahahah

19. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?
---- nah...

20. Nangarag ka ba sa updating/paghaha bol sa projects?
---- course.

21 . Anong unang-una mong ginawa right after graduation?
---- nagtawag ng Sandiwa para kumanta kami sa podium stage.

22 . Ano naman ang papel mo sa Intrams?
---- cheering to bord ever since first year!

23 . Favorite Janitor/Janitress?
---- manong bebot, yea.

24. Did you regert going to hs?
---- nope. :)

broke my heart.

may mga bagay na pinararamdam sa atin ang mga pinakamatitinding damdamin-- matinding galit na nais mong sumigaw, umaapaw na saya na di mo mapigilang ngumiti, at sobrang kalungkutan na natatahimik ka nalang--walang mga luaha, walang mga salita, walang kung anuman. sa panahon ng matinding kalungkutan, naranasan kong hindi gumalaw, hindi makinig sa kung ano, hindi makadama. hayaan nyong ipakita ko sa inyo ang isang bagay na nagdala sakin ng matinding kalungkutan--kalungkutan sa kanyang kinahantungan at sa lahat ng mga bagay na karugtong nito ::

Girl who killed self lamented family’s poverty in diary
By Nico Alconaba
Inquirer
Last updated 10:00pm (Mla time) 11/07/2007

DAVAO CITY, Philippines -- A 12-year-old girl, who became despondent over her family’s poverty, hanged herself inside their makeshift house a day after her father told her he could not give her the P100 she needed for a school project.

Using a thin nylon rope, 12-year-old Mariannet Amper hanged herself in the afternoon of November 2. She was a sixth grader at the Maa Central Elementary School.

Her father, Isabelo, 49, who was out of job as a construction worker, said Mariannet asked him for P100 which she needed for school projects, on the night of November 1. He told his daughter that he did not have the money yet but he would ask his wife if she could get some money for her. The morning after, however, he was able to get a P1,000 cash advance for a construction work on a downtown chapel.

By the time he got home, Mariannet already lay dead.

"Duda nako nga tungod ni sa kalisod namo (I suspect that she did it because of our situation)," Isabelo said.

Going through Mariannet's things, her parents saw her school "talaarawan" or diary.

In her October 5 entry, Mariannet wrote: "Parang isang buwan na kaming absent. Hindi na kasi nakin (sic) binibilang ang absent ko. Hindi ko namalayan na malapit na pala ang Pasko." [It feels as if we’ve been absent for a month. They’re not counting my absences anymore. I just realized that Christmas is just around the corner.]

Isabelo recalled that in that week, Mariannet skipped school as they did not have money for her food and transportation allowance.

"We did not have any money and I didn't want Mariannet and her younger brother (Reynald) to walk to school," he said in Bisaya.

But Isabelo clarified that Mariannet was absent for only three days. "For her, three days was like one month," he said.

On October 14, Mariannet wrote in her diary: "Hindi kami nakapagsimba dahil wala kaming pamasahe at nilalagnat pa ang aking tatay kaya nanglaba na lang kami ng aking nanay." [We were not able to hear mass because we did not have fare money and my dad was sick with fever. So, my mom and I just washed clothes.]

Along with her diary, the Ampers also discovered a letter Mariannet wrote for the GMA 7 television program "Wish Ko Lang [I just Wish]."

"Gusto ko po sana magkaroon ng bagong sapatos at bag at hanapbuhay para sa nanay at tatay ko. Wala kasing hanapbuhay ang tatay at nagpa-extra extra lamang ang aking nanay sa paglalaba," she said in her "Wish Ko Lang" letter. [I wish for new shoes, a bag and jobs for my mother and father. My dad does not have a job and my mom just gets laundry jobs.]

"Gusto ko na makatapos ako sa pag-aaral at gustong-gusto ko na makabili ng bagong bike," she added. [I would like to finish my schooling and I would like very much to buy a new bike.]

That letter, apparently written while Mariannet was still 11 years old, was never sent to "Wish Ko Lang."

"We never knew that our daughter had dreams for us," Isabelo said.

Isabelo's wife, Magdalena, works part-time "repacking" odong and misua in a nearby factory, earning at least P50 a day. She also does laundry jobs on the side, receiving P100 to P150.

Isabelo, on the other hand, is in and out of work.

"I'm already old, no one would want to hire me," he said.

The Ampers live in a hillside community at the back of the Yñiguez Subdivision in Maa District. They do not have electricity and water supply.

Of the seven children, only Mariannet and Reynald are left with their parents as most are grown up and have families of their own.

Even with only two children left to feed, the Ampers still have a hard time surviving.

A neighbor said that even in this "mostly poor" neighborhood, the Ampers were being discriminated against.

"Ayaw makipaglaro ng ibang bata sa kanila dahil madudungis daw sila," the neighbor said. [The other kids do not want to play with them because they’re dirty.]

"Mahirap na nga sila, ni-reject pa ng ibang kapitbahay," she added. [They’re poor and they’re rejected by their neighbors.]
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naisip kong sana may aksyon nang magawa para sa kahirapan talaga. ilang Manette pa ba ang mawawalan ng pag-asa para sa bayan na 'to? natakot tuloy ako na baka ako balang araw ay mawalan ng pag-asa. tulungan natin ang bansang hindi mawalan nito. kung pwede ko lang isigaw na, kapit lang kayo dyan e gagawin ko kaso maging ako ay nahihirapan nang kumapit. sa kabilang dako, isang magandang bagay na may 'gimik' ngayong linggo, bagamat malamang-lamang e hindi ako makapupunta. so kung kayo ay libre sa linggo, sali na kayo rito. simple lang naman e, punta kayo sa manila bay para panoorin ang sunset. magsuot ng blue :) [isang proyekto ng RockEd]

and i semi-quote Tado [yes,the funny guy with long hair, as he announces this event]:

"punta tayo dun para panoorin ang sunset kasi kung wala ka nang masabi at blahblahblah(he really said blahblahblah.hahaha), itapon nalang natin sa araw na palubog at umasa tayong pagsikat nya bukas ay may masasabi sya sa'tin."

whot.

siguro naman may kahinaan ang mga taong mukhang wala--na sila pala ang kailangang pangalagaan bagamat inaakalang di na nila ito kailangan.

okay,enough about the emoness shiz. let's get onto the bitchy stuff. today we enrolled and right when we were about to leave, when we already paid, when we are HAPPY WITH OUR SCHEDULES someone would come up to us, basic people in ma18 that we have to take ma19 instead of ma18b. why does this spell shiznit all over? well, we already knew that we'd take ma19 but aisis offered us with only ma18b. also, we were already done with the enrollment and we had to go back to escaler hall and shizzamingly change our frickin' BEAUTIFULLY ARRANGED schedules to something screwed. next, we have to take a subject [ma19] which is not part of the curriculum. talk about wasting time, money and effin efforts. third, we are now soooooooooooo lagging behind the regulars! why do they have to do this to us? just because we failed the first two long tests we're treated like this? just because we're careless in those tests we have to go from escaler to ctc back and forth? just because [FINE] we're not as intelligent as the regulars we have to go through this?



okay, maybe that was too much but still! :| now i have to stay every single day till 4:30 in the afternoon. talk about being high school once more. SHIZZAM. this is so YAGIT.


^$#(*@()!&#*&$%^*&^@^%!)(!&$)%(&)_%@&)(&#%##$%^&*(&%#@!))!)!!_*)#%$^#@$#^@!&!

you just have to read this :))

or maybe not. haha

okay. so back in junior year, we had a seatwork in chemistry [ did it with therese lansangan-long ] wherein we have to match our answers [ i.e. subscripts of compounds and whatnot ] to a code our teacher gave us. one item's answer was proboscis. its description was 'bornean monkey' so we didn't give a damn about it then. since we're not that good in chem, we messed up our answers and formed titix instead.

now i was reading this adult magazine [ don't ask why. ] and i saw the picture of the monkey, proboscis. here's a picture of one::

HAHAHAHAHAHA. tell me what's wrong with the picture. hahahahahahahaha

alright, for those who just can't get it, let me share with you the description the adult mag gave about the monkey. [ this isn't a direct quote. ]
"proboscis is a monkey with a SCROTUM as its nose to attract the opposite sex"

now if you still don't get it, ewan ko nalang. :)) and titix pa talaga yung nabuo namin e. wahahahahaahahaha

kinikilig ako, sorry.

di dahil sa pag-ibig.haha. malapit na ang pasko, bord! :) yihee~ hahaha. tsaka yung milagro ng fil at lit,hanep! loveeeeht.hahahaha. thank you Lord :> and malapit na dumating yung cam. haha. tapos ayos pa yung nov.3. so ano na?manlilibre na bako? HAHAHA. joke lang. i'm broke. ohmy guess what, i saw a deck of cards na 4x6 sinches ang laki. DAMN. i want that. could you buy me that pag may nakita kayong binebenta? please :) thanks. hahahaha

HOLY PEOPLE and everyone else.

*entirely copied from lois madrid.haha ::

okay, GAME TIME :D
hey, got load? sure you do!
support your school, support our school, support AGLAIA!
2 schools are up for the wildcard position: SHS and St. Paul Makati

ok ok here we go:
text SSB3 [space] POLL [space] H2 to 9977

easy enough right? good!

voting starts november 6 and ends november 13

okay! lets do this, text the night away!
got nothing to do? VOTE :D
bored? VOTE :D
dont get the lesson in school? VOTE! :D [kidding... not really XD]
main point: VOOOOOTTTTE!!!
you know you want to vote :>

thank you, God Bless.

WE DEFINITELY NEED YOUR SUPPORT : )

whose idea was it,anyway?

:|

may mga bagay na sobrang excited ka about pero di lang talaga maintindihan ng mundo at wala kang mahanap na mababahaginang tao at iiwanan ka lang nila at di mo na magagawa ang mga bagay na yun cause you just can't do it by yourself.

i just can't do this by myself.

and then you lose all the enthusiasm you have for that thing because no one's there to help you,man.


this is so crazy i'm ranting and ranting ranting all day long.



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whose idea was it,anyway?